It's been so long since I've felt this relaxed! Again today I've been lazy. It's fabulous!! After months (more like a year!) of what feels like
continually going over my own boundaries, I can tell my whole body and mindset are unwinding. Our youngest, whom I call "imp", he's finally
coming back into his own too... I've been pretty worried about him since our trip to Europe last spring. It was very hard to see him close up and become so
vulnerable, and I am glad that we are priviledged enough for me to have stayed home with him - and even to pull him out of school after giving it a try. After
all, we'd already registered him and there wasn't a shadow of a doubt that he wouldn't be ready. But after Europe, he couldn't handle it and he
needed time and space to figure out again who he is. It appears that he is now coming out of that self-imposed cave. That was the biggest of my worries. The
others were the storms and their damage to our house, car and business, our financial situation after far too many sudden (high) costs that we couldn't put
off, and the tension that these issues put on a relationship.
So now I bask and enjoy while I can, I see my son opening up, I see the storms taper down, I see the finances start to rebalance... and peace returns to the house, to body, to mind, and to the rest of myself.
So now I bask and enjoy while I can, I see my son opening up, I see the storms taper down, I see the finances start to rebalance... and peace returns to the house, to body, to mind, and to the rest of myself.
