My life

Weekend

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Sun, 11 Mar 2007 14:32:04 GMT

It's weekend, dh has taken the boys out for the second day in a row so that I have time to do whatever I want without feeling drawn into the roles of mom, housekeeper or anything other than just me. He rented the full second season of "Medium" for me. It's really nice to be given the space to let go of "duty".

Face is almost clear!!

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Tue, 06 Mar 2007 20:48:43 GMT

My face is almost clear of swelling and scaling and weeping hives!! Woo!!! I have been outside a few times now, getting some fresh air while cleaning up in the yard and around the house in general. Dh has a big business hotshot visiting for a work meeting, but since dh works from home in his private sty in the basement, that was quite the challenge. We actually managed to make the office look like an Office, and strict instructions on how to make it look as though that's the way it's...

Getting better

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Sat, 03 Mar 2007 13:57:58 GMT

I'm feeling a lot better. The immune, digestive and kidney issues are easing up. I have found a cream that appears to help with the skin around my eyes, and OTC allergy meds appear to be relieving the swelling. I'm feeling more confident and more energetic again.

Shite

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Tue, 27 Feb 2007 08:54:13 GMT

The patches on my face swelled up again during the night, they're so big and puffy now, on top of being itchy and burning.

Edited to add that the doc's verdict is "blepharitis", caused by seborrheic dermatitis. Nice.

Back to daily life

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Fri, 23 Feb 2007 11:38:32 GMT

No more fevers. Life is allegedly back to normal. I hope this means that I can now finally focus on my own health returning...

Health

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Mon, 19 Feb 2007 15:50:02 GMT

Our health seems to be returning at long last. Josh still has a fever, but it's minimal. Luca is raring to get going outside again which means he's back to his usual self. In his world there's no reason to not be outside - unless he's pretty darn ill.

More fever

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Thu, 15 Feb 2007 18:38:15 GMT

The kids and I are balancing a 39C/103F fever. Joy oh joy. I'll be back when we're feeling a *lot* better.

Fever

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Mon, 12 Feb 2007 09:23:51 GMT

Luca didn't want dinner last night. He came downstairs with quiet tears in his eyes, saying he needed private time and wasn't going to have dinner. All he wanted was rice milk. He wasn't even enticed by mentioning his favourite foods. By the time that Josh and I sat down for dinner, Luca wanted to go to bed. Ohhhkay... something isn't quite right there. So when dinner was over I went to check on Luca, and sure enough, he was almost asleep in my bed, with flushed cheeks and a...

Day 3

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Sun, 11 Feb 2007 12:09:38 GMT

Day three of a dramatic change in diet is accompanied by a lovely die-off headache. The only thing I haven't yet bought is grapefruit seed extract (GSE), but I will get that for when the oregano/olive leaf is done. Man, it feels really drastic, but it feels right.

Patches around my eyes

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Fri, 09 Feb 2007 11:46:53 GMT

I've got this horrible scaly patch under my eye. It showed up out of the blue last Saturday, swollen and red, in the line where dark circles would be visible when I'm tired. It's almost in inch long, half an inch wide. It's horrible and itchy. Thankfully the swelling cleared up with anti-histamines, but the redness remains, and the scales remind me of psoriasis/eczema. There are mini patches in my eyebrow and in the crook between my eyelids on both sides, and in the corner of...

In big love

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Fri, 02 Feb 2007 17:14:33 GMT

Our oldest son has his first crush. This afternoon he saw a stuffed animal, a blonde lab puppy, at the thrift store. He chose to buy it, because he said, it was pretty and sweet and therefore it was a girl and he could call it Laura. He's got a classmate called Laura, who is a very pretty girl, but who's also been very attentive to him lately. So later this afternoon he spilled the beans. "I think I am in big love with Laura", he says. "And I think she's in secret...

House full...

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Wed, 31 Jan 2007 12:01:25 GMT

This afternoon I will have six young lads varying in age from 5 to 7 running through the house and yard. I hope more yard than house will be explored, because it's a beautiful day. It's going to be fun to hear their laughter and car and airplane sounds, their pecking order squabbles... they're always so completely independent when they've got friends over. But ouch when it is time to clean up!

*edited to add the aftermath...
Wasn't I a regular Martha...

What's going on??

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Mon, 29 Jan 2007 22:47:40 GMT

They've been feeling out of sorts. My patience is wearing thin, though I also feel equal amounts of compassion for their obvious discomfort. Big bags under their eyes - their bags have luggage of their own. *shakes head*. It's as though there's this fog in their heads. Perhaps it's the cold that they appear to have caught; it's not easy for them to describe "sinus fog". Alternatively, we've had such stupidly busy months that it could even be their way of...

Weekend off!!

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Sat, 27 Jan 2007 16:33:12 GMT

This weekend my husband has the kids and they're doing a sleep-over for a Robby Burns night at a friend's house. This means that I have the whole house to myself.

*bask*

Positively lazy!!

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Thu, 25 Jan 2007 13:16:59 GMT

It's been so long since I've felt this relaxed! Again today I've been lazy. It's fabulous!! After months (more like a year!) of what feels like continually going over my own boundaries, I can tell my whole body and mindset are unwinding. Our youngest, whom I call "imp", he's finally coming back into his own too... I've been pretty worried about him since our trip to Europe last spring. It was very hard to see him close up and become so vulnerable, and I am...

Optimistic

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Tue, 23 Jan 2007 13:29:33 GMT

Today I feel very optimistic. I had such a lazy start to the day, for the first time in MONTHS. I wasn't on-call last night, meaning I could go to sleep and not subconsciously keep an ear out for a phone call. I didn't have to get up to bring anyone anywhere. I didn't have any time schedule to keep because there are no appointments today. How luxuriously lazy that feels!

Edited to add that it is now after 5pm, and I'm still lazing around. My youngest put silly putty...

My blog - how wonderful!

feeds@yuku.com (cedar rose) — Tue, 23 Jan 2007 11:22:44 GMT

Welcome to my blog. I will update with brief bits about my world, so that people can know from which mindset or context I am posting. I don't know that this information will impact my posts at the skins forum, lobby, dev board or GetHelp, but they will perhaps provide context...